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Thanksgivinggg

Mon Oct 12, 2009, 2:56 PM
  • Mood: Sweet
  • Reading: The essay I should be doing :c
  • Watching: Little People Big World
Happy Turkey Day all you lovely Canadian ladies and gents out there

(Danii: I'm going to be honest, your wallet isn't done just yet and I have no forgotten. School's had me slammed. It will be done and mailed ASAP. Haven't forgotten. You're the top of the list currently I promise.)

Yes! Duct tape wallets are still for sale! (You were all clearly clawing to ask) Note me for any questions/if you're interested at all. TUN TAKE A PICTURE OF THE ONE I MADE YOU RIGHT NOW! It turned out sweet guys; medical theme.

I'm excited for The Ultimate Cake Off. It's on again tonight. Damn I love cake shows; (Cake Boss is better but heeyyy.)

Going to get a bit older soon c: No clue what's really going on, but a night at a hotel with friends and movies would be nice. Something small. Sixteenth doesn't have to be wild; just fun c:

I went on a lovely walk today with Tun. It's Autumn and gosh do I love it. It actually snowed the other day. It didn't stay, but little flakes were coming down again this morning. We went around the lake near here and down below the bridge onto the rocks. It was nice c: THOUGHT ID SHARE THAT.

ALRIGHT. QUESTION I READ TODAY: Do you think withholding a child's gender is an okay thing to do? (Ex; Parents in the UK have a child with a 'genderless' name, such as Pat or Alex (I know it started with a P but I can't remember) and they choose what to wear: one day dresses, another slacks and short hair. Their hair style changes from ponytails and bobs to short spiked cuts and they do not reveal their child's gender and have told them they don't have to tell anyone either. Their logic: It will avoid gender-pressured roles and appearances. Good idea? Bad? I think it's rather revolutionary.

a strange kind of feeling

Tue Oct 6, 2009, 6:30 PM
  • Mood: Defeated
has come over me tonight


i went to the mall eventually tonight after homework, the power at the movies going out, an accident, road construction, and everything else. i went to the washroom in the diner there that was closed. i saw a paper for a pregnancy test and didn't think much of it. until i saw a ' plan b' box, and a negative pregnancy test. someone came to the mall, probably stopped at the pharmacy, took a ' plan b' (emergency contraceptive; the morning after pill sort of deal) and then took a pregnancy test all in a mall washroom.

a life was potentially ended. people are having pregnancy 'scares' and having 'accidents' with condoms. i wish it would be that easy for us; so easy that you'd need a backup plan 'incase' it happens. maybe i sound stupid, but god, i have such a strange feeling. i almost cried in the stall. a very close friend is prolife, and that wasnt the bulk of why i was upset, but some of it was i think. maybe five percent, as shallow as it may sound to some. it just.. hurt to know that if they ever want to have kids theyre pretty much good to go. it just.. hurt.

11:18PM. In short, I'm tired

Journal Entry: Tue Sep 29, 2009, 7:19 PM
  • Mood: Defeated



i should be sleeping


My membership will be running out soon; but I’ve never purchased one myself, so, I guess I cannot complain.

I’ll be honest, I like dA a lot. I don’t post as much as I usually do, but I quite enjoy it. With that said, I don’t think I’ll be able to go on as much as I usually do. Not saying I’ll be a big missed star, but I have realized that with the ridiculous and intense panic attacks I have been getting lately (on a deca-daily bases it seems as of a few weeks ago), every time I open the internet window and type in that nearly habitual ‘deviantart.com’, an attack begins. Right now my heart is racing and I feel I’m about to be sick. With the St. John’s Wort recommended by a good friend for depression, I should be calming down if anything. They’re becoming incapacitating, and I doubt I’ll be able to talk to my doctor about them or the triggers I know of (who wants to talk to a stranger about their problems, right?) So, as stupid as it sounds, I’m going to have to try to stay off. I’d love messages and things still, but just allow reply time.

Not much to update in all honestly. I should be reading a book about Jewish boy and sex.



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fuck be safe

Journal Entry: Mon Sep 21, 2009, 2:00 PM
  • Mood: Defeated


i will never again say today is going to be a good day


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Journal Entry: Sun Sep 13, 2009, 5:18 PM
  • Mood: Defeated



if you arent fucking the models


i was told to do whatever i wanted


im failing at the only thing i live for so i dont see much in not giving up if i dont get better. and as it has seemed to be going lately, im not sure if im going to get better at it

im sorry in advance




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